This morning I awoke, with "stuff" on my mind...I had a to do list, had to get to it and it involved email and work, and worries:(
SO I got right to it, started sending emails, started adding to my list of worries, and inside my body I could feel the heavy.
I got through enough to feel somewhat accomplished, and got on my treadmill to run some of the heavy out.
As I ran, my mind must have sensed something was wrong, so it decided to "save" me.
My mind started to race to "help out"- thoughts ran off in all directions in an attempt to do what minds have done since the beginning of time- keep us alive in stress. I started into a trail of thought that just got heavier and heavier. You know, "what if this..., what if that..." And worse scenarios after worse scenarios started to arrive on my mind.
When I stopped. The thought then came to my mind, "why go there?"
What does this trail of worry leave me with? Solutions? More problems? More worry?
And I kept moving, kept breathing, used what my yoga instructors have told me in meditation before- "Don't follow those thoughts, allow them to be, name them, and then let them go."
And I did. I named those thoughts...
"That's my to do list, those are my worries, I'm afraid of the future. I'm saddened by what's out of my control."
But in this moment, I'm ok.
And, I felt lighter, and even for just a little bit- I felt better.
And I'm reminded, it is within my power to make myself feel better. I can use the techniques I've learned in yoga/meditation for life off the mat.
I can't change my circumstances necessarily. I can't make every event in my life blissful. But it is within my power to center myself and find peace through breath and pause.
Don't let your thoughts define you.
Take a moment to pause, find some big deep breaths in and out. In those moments, allow thoughts to come in but don't follow them. Let them trail away, telling yourself, you are OK. Let the feeling of calm come over you and acknowledge what it feels like.